Last night was a really long business meeting at our church. Two and a half hours. There was tension in the room. Micah felt it. After a while he went around and started hugging everyone who would let him...or who I would let him get to. We sat around a lot of people who love him, so it was fine.
It was really difficult to go through that meeting with a horrible headache. I wrote on facebook that I want a t-shirt that says "I survived a Southern Baptist church business meeting." I could probably add "with a headache at the beginning and not just the end."
The discussion was over something that everyone really needs to pray about and get feelings out of the way (not that there are any subjects that aren't like that). There are a lot of feelings about this subject, and understandably so. Still, we need God's direction, not just what we want. We need to seek His Will, not our own.
Personally, I am swayed one particular direction on this subject. I really want things to go my way. Still, I am open to the God's Will. He is the one who should make the decisions for the life of our church and for my family. All I need to do is listen and obey. That can be a difficult thing when I really want my way. It's hard not to pray that those who oppose my way of thinking will come to their senses and just do things the way I want them. Really, though, I want God's Will. I think that when it comes down to it, the others in the church really want His Will as well, they just struggle the same way that I do. They want to pray for people like me to come to our senses and do things their way.
In the end, God is still in control.
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I read that status update on Facebook and thought about making you a peace of flare. I may still when I get home.
God's will is very hard to submit to sometimes. I know that obediance does not come easily for me. The funniest part of that is that I know, KNOW that the rewards for obediance are great, often times far greater than I could have imagined. Yet I find myself fighting far more often than not.
Have you gotten any results from the Dr's?
I know it sounds silly, but have you asked God what lesson he is trying to teach you with your vision problems and headaches?
I don't have any results yet. I go to see the ophthalmologist on Wednesday, and the neurologist is in a couple of weeks. I'm still waiting.
I don't know where God is in this whole mess with my health, except in charge. That's good enough for me right now.
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