Friday, March 27, 2009

A Doctor Visit

Today I went to see my primary physician for the first time since my eye thing started. She went over all of the tests done by the ophthalmologist, and is now sending me to a neurologist for more tests.

Exciting, huh?

Don't you wish you were me?

I do.

So, the tests that I am going to see the neurologist for is to see if I have MS. Apparently the ophthalmologist missed something small and possibly insignificant in my brain, but since I have obvious symptoms of something because of my vision thing, any little thing that shows up in my brain makes a difference. My doctor just wants to know why the vision thing is happening. So do I. I don't want MS to be the cause, though.

I haven't been getting what I want lately, though.

Scary, huh?

I know you don't really want to be me.

I don't either.

Days like this make me just want to know that God is still in control. I'm a little freaked out...can you tell? My doctor said not to go home and cry. Really, those were her words to me. We don't know what it is yet, so there isn't any point in crying over something that we are just testing for. If that I do that, then I'll be crying my eyes out for a while.

So I'm freaked out, but I'm not going to cry.

Really.

Not at all.

Ok, I already did.

Can you blame me?

"For, as I have often told you before and now say again even with tears, many live as enemies of the cross of Christ. Their destiny is destruction, their god is their stomach, and their glory is in their shame. Their mind is on earthly things. But our citizenship is in heaven. And we eagerly await a Savior from there, the Lord Jesus Christ, who, by the power that enables him to bring everything under his control, will transform our lowly bodies so that they will be like his glorious body." Philippians 3:18-21

3 comments:

Unknown said...

I'll keep my fingers crossed for ya.
And cry all you want! But maybe not in front of the kids...They can get freaked out if Mommy has an emotional breakdown.

Miss C said...

Somehow, someway, God is using you to touch people and glorify his name. Have faith, hope in the Lord for he is mighty.

I will pray that things get better for you, that if nothing else you are able to find comfort and peace.

Psalm 33:18-22
18 But the eyes of the LORD are on those who fear him,on those whose hope is in his unfailing love,
19 to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine.
20 We wait in hope for the LORD; he is our help and our shield.
21 In him our hearts rejoice, for we trust in his holy name.
22 May your unfailing love rest upon us, O LORD,even as we put our hope in you.

Unknown said...

My church is praying for you!! I love you, let me know if I can do anything at all to help!