Today is still a sad day. As I was praying this morning I felt led to do something that I don't like. I'm still going to pray about it, but so far the rest of the day has been confirmation of what I feel led to do.
I feel horrible about it.
I have some talking to do. I have some actions to take. I don't like them.
Serving God isn't easy. The things that He calls us to are not always what we want to do. I am finding that God is asking me to do some hard things lately. I don't want to. I want to stay in my little comfort zone and continue with my life as is. How horrible would that be, though? I mean, if God wants me to do something, wouldn't I be worse off if I didn't do it?
So here I am. I am being broken. It's hard. I'm sad.
2 comments:
I am catching up on blogs today and I read (backwards) how your last few days have been going, I am so sorry to hear you have been having a rough time. You are absolutely right, God is challenging you.
Sometimes the hardest things to do are truly the most rewarding. Something I learned (the hard way) was to find the joy in a difficult challenge.
I hope you can find your joy!
James 1: 2-8, 12
2Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. 4Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. 6But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
12Blessed is the man who perseveres under trial, because when he has stood the test, he will receive the crown of life that God has promised to those who love him.
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