So I had a BAD day...

It always makes me sad when my bad days are on Sundays. The fact that I go to church on Sundays should make my day better, right? I have the opportunity to worship God in so many ways on Sundays together with my church family.

Today I felt like the family member who everyone hopes doesn't come to Thanksgiving dinner.

Sad, huh? Honestly, there are probably good reasons why everything that happened today. I'm sure not every comment that I heard that felt negative was intended in that way. I felt attacked, though. I felt an attack on my family. The kind of attack that hurts the most because it came from people whom I love.

One of the reasons why I go to church is so that I can be built up by people who love me. The fellowship with other believers helps me make it through the rest of the week. I didn't feel that love from everyone today. There are people, however, in the course of my day who did build me up and help me. I felt their love every time I started to gather my kids up and go home. I didn't, by the way. I made it through the whole day. That is probably because of those encouraging few.

My church is not completely full of mean people. It just happens to be filled with sinners. As my husband pointed out earlier today, ministry would be easy if it weren't for the people.

Just a side note. I still can't see well out of my right eye. I'm mostly colorblind and things are all fuzzy. I drove home from church this afternoon and started to cry because I couldn't see to park my car in the driveway. It probably would have been an automatic thing if my mom's car hadn't been parked in what is usually my spot. I didn't want to hit the brick wall, though, so I stopped in the road and waited for my husband (who was right behind me) to come park my car. I cried. I hate to cry. I was so upset about the things that had happened at church that I just couldn't stop, though. I don't like not being able to see well.

So today I am down. Tomorrow will be better. I am determined.

Psalm 86

A prayer of David.

¹ Hear, O LORD, and answer me,
for I am poor and needy.

² Guard my life, for I am devoted to you.
You are my God; save your servant
who trusts in you.

³ Have mercy on me, O Lord,
for I call to you all day long.

⁴ Bring joy to your servant,
for to you, O Lord,
I lift up my soul.

⁵ You are forgiving and good, O Lord,
abounding in love to all who call to you.

⁶ Hear my prayer, O LORD;
listen to my cry for mercy.

⁷ In the day of my trouble I will call to you,
for you will answer me.

⁸ Among the gods there is none like you, O Lord;
no deeds can compare with yours.

⁹ All the nations you have made
will come and worship before you, O Lord;
they will bring glory to your name.

¹⁰ For you are great and do marvelous deeds;
you alone are God.

¹¹ Teach me your way, O LORD,
and I will walk in your truth;
give me an undivided heart,
that I may fear your name.

¹² I will praise you, O Lord my God, with all my heart;
I will glorify your name forever.

¹³ For great is your love toward me;
you have delivered me from the depths of the grave.

¹⁴ The arrogant are attacking me, O God;
a band of ruthless men seeks my life—
men without regard for you.

¹⁵ But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God,
slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness.

¹⁶ Turn to me and have mercy on me;
grant your strength to your servant
and save the son of your maidservant.

¹⁷ Give me a sign of your goodness,
that my enemies may see it and be put to shame,
for you, O LORD, have helped me and comforted me.