Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Keeping My Mouth Shut

You know if you read my previous blog that I am in a waiting stage in my life. This is kinda a continuation of that same topic, though not entirely.

I hate knowing secrets. Seriously. Not just dislike. Not just irritated by them. I hate knowing secrets. Well, let me clarify. I hate not being able to talk about something. I hate having to be careful not to say something that will let on that I know something that I am not supposed to say anything about. I know, that wasn't clear.

So lately I have had to keep my mouth shut when a certain subjects come up that I know something about that I can't say anything about. The subjects keep coming up, too! I have even had to make decisions based upon that knowledge that I have and then not be able to explain why I am making that decision. Yeah, that was not cool. What's even worse is that I am not able to keep my body language tamed, so people know that I know something, but I don't say anything about it. Then people get all offended and I just try to walk away.

Soon one of the secrets will be revealed, and that will be a relief. Of course, that will still only be one of the secrets. That might be worse. I think I still might need to keep my mouth shut still because I think if I talk about one thing, everything will come spilling out of my mouth.

What I think I am trying to say is that I need to keep my mouth shut for a while. Do me a favor and don't ask me any questions. I may know something, but I might not be able to tell you. Please don't torture me.

Thanks

"Even a fool, when he keeps silent, is considered wise;
When he closes his lips, he is considered prudent."
Proverbs 17:28

7 comments:

Miss C said...

It drives me insane to have to hold my tounge as well. Especially when I know something that would make people make diffrent decisions if only I were allowed to tell.

I feel for you.

Unknown said...

.....I have no idea what you are talking about. But I hope it all works out soon.

Jennifer said...

hmmmm, now you have my curiosity peaked!

Supermomie said...

This was really just an attempt to talk about something without actually talking about it. Sorry if I confused you. Really, I wasn't attempting to make people curious, either. Hopefully everything gets out in the open soon so that I don't have to worry about this much longer. I don't know how long I can stand it.

Skubaliscious said...

Good luck! I stink at keeping big secrets. Hope things resolve soon :)

Unknown said...

I have a secret too. Want to know? I'm having a baby!!!! :)

Paul said...

It's a good thing I'm not down there. I'd get out the thumbscrews and do my best Hogan's Heroes Gestapo impression.

ve have vays of making you talk!

But then, I'm a big brother, so it is really no surprise to note that my first thoughts went to "If I was there, I'd torture her till she talked".

I guess it is just how I roll...